holy shit.... its amazing how quickly things can change... i've said this before haven't i? well life has once again threw my a curve ball..... a really fuckin huge 360 degree curve ball.... really not all that much has changed.... but the few things that have are huge! first off.,.... my daughters father is slowly working himself out of the trench that he dug for himself over a year ago..... but i'm proud of him... the things he's making happen for himself.... i got some interesting information about some stupid whore that i used to know... and it has just reconfirmed what i've known for as long as i've known her... she is fuckin PATHETIC! AND IT BRINGS ME GREAT JOY KNOWING THIS.... ya know it really amazes me how desperate and pathetic and weak so many women are around here.... they'll latch on to anything with a dick... married or otherwise.... they don't care... and its fuckin PATHETIC... i know i said that already.... but i'll say it again.... she's a nasty ass dirty skanky PATHETIC WHORE!!! HEHEHEHE~~!~~ ANYWAYS..... so... i'm really hating my job right now.... ironically its because we're hardly working any overtime.... yes i'm complaining because i'm only working 42 hours a week.... but hopefuly i get to work a double on saturday.... well 12 hours..... woohooo..... i gotta start saving for chritmas! and a new apartment... yes i'm apartment shopping this weekend.... which i'm super excieted about!!!! theres one i'm looking at tomorrow night and i haven't seen it yet... but i know i want it... i just know i do.... it sounds perfect! close to work, close to daycare.... kind of.... affordable... big..... only thing is.... i don't need it till begining of november and its available on the 25th of this month... so if i like it maybe i can talk the landlord into holding on to it till then.... eeeee!!! i'm so excieted.... but usually when i get super exceited about things like this.... they never work out for me.... thats how it always goes for me.... so my daughters father and i are on the mend.... i really believe in my heart that theres still hope for us.... but we'll see.... this is definately something i'm not going to get all worked up over cuz like i just said.... its when i really really want something that it usually doesn't happen.... so anyways.. i guess thats all for now.... just wanted to pop in and say hey its been a while.... hope everything is as well as it can be for everyone in they're current situations.... peace out!
first off.... let me say congrats to wisconsinpunk and the rest of his family on the birth of his daughter Teagan!!!! so i guess its been a while since the last time i wrote anything at all.... i guess thats just life right now.... works been crazy but definately NOT as crazy as this time last year.... last year i was working 51 hours a week.... this year its only up to 42.5... kind fo a relief but the extra overtime was really nice of course.... but the up side to it is that i have more time to spend with my daughter and i get to watch her grow by leaps and bounds physically, emotionally, and developmentally.... more now that i'm not working as much.... it amazes me..... i can't believe she used to be a little timy 7 1/2 pound baby and now she's almost walking.... almost 30 inches tall and 22 pounds!!!! CRAZY!!!! they say time goes faster the older you get.... but i think what it really is is that time goes by a whole hell of alot faster the second you have a child..... hold on to you're seats kids.... its going to be wild ride!!!! so other than work..... i just returned from my vacation two weeks ago.... its was freakin' incredible!!!! so very needed and got to spend time with much loved and very dear friends.... one whom i hadn't seen in over two years!!!! the ocean was amazing.... i'd never been until this trip.... i saw a whale jump out of the same water i was swimming and following that were three dolphins!!! AMAZING!!! our hotel was right there on the beach so every morning i got to wake up with my coffee and cigarettes and sit and wathc the sun come up over the ocean.... i've seen a billion sun rises over lake michigan.... but wathcing the sun come up over the horizon of the ocean.... for me it was incredibly spiritual for me.... i can't put into words the feelings the first time i saw the sun come up..... and the night time.... all the stars... the stars were actually twinkling! and all the shooting stars.... one of my favorite things in life.... it was just all around a wonderful time.... this was my first "real" vacation ever..... and we've decided that no matter where any of us are living that every year we will all take a vacation.... somewhere... it doesn't always have to be the beach or the ocean.... but once a year..... we're all meeting somewhere.... lets see what else? theres alot going on.... lots and lots of changes going on right now... so much that i'm not even going to get into it.... all good changes though.... and on that note..... i'm going to have to sign off.... its only wednesday... two more days of work and then a three day weekend!!!! yes!!! and one of them is a payed day off!!!! woohooo!!!!! so congratulations sean.... and jennifer..... and the rest of you're family..... love on that baby all you can....
new beginings
